Blog Category : Personal

The Wilderness

April 04, 2017

  I have been living life in what I have termed “The Wilderness” for exactly two years now.  With the timing of entry into that barren wasteland falling close to McSweets‘ due date, initially I thought it was the grief.  Another round of mommy tears as I grieved a day I would not be having…a day where I… Read More

Known

November 07, 2016

  Hey you.  Yeah, you.  I’m talking to the couples who are walking the road of infertility right now.  I don’t know how many of you who read my posts have ever experienced what it is like to struggle having kids, so if you can’t quite “relate” to what I am about to say?  It’s… Read More

Dad-isms

September 27, 2016

This is the one day of the year where I have a free pass to cry as much as I need to in order to cover for the other 364 days of the year where my chin is up, I’ve got my game face on, big girl panties pulled up and life…feels more like a… Read More

Reset.

June 22, 2016

  I had a hard dose of reality at the onset of 2016.  A kick in the gut, if you will.  I felt convicted…smack dab in one of those uncomfortable moments where you realize where your mind had been dwelling and it was high time you made some real changes in your attitude.  Enough was enough. What… Read More

Say “No” to Say “Yes”

April 24, 2016

I came across expired baby lotions this past week.  Baby shampoos.  Diaper creams.  All the containers of baby necessities we had ready for Owen’s arrival.  While most of our unopened baby items were returned and the amounts put on gift cards after he passed, these were among the few items that remained.  Already opened and… Read More

For the Bible Tells Me So

October 23, 2015

When we lost Owen so suddenly, with only a few hours to say goodbye, I relived the trauma of that night on repeat for months after.  When that happens.  When you watch the ventilator take his last breath for him, see the heart monitor flatline and know that the miracle you were holding out for… Read More

Mile 25…

October 15, 2015

  Infertility. It seems like a dead end.  This word seems so final.  Like a period at the end of a sentence, when it should be a comma.  A pause.  A hurdle.  Even a redirection. I was super emotional the first time I went to see my new fertility doctors.  We entered into the doctor’s… Read More

Hilton Head 2015

September 09, 2015

Vacation ALWAYS comes at just the right time, doesn’t it?  I know this is true because my hubby, John, & I did practically NOTHING on vacation this year.  Nothing.  We sat.  We ate.  We were on that beach perched under an umbrella for most of the day.  Not reading.  Not looking at magazines.  Just…sitting there.  It… Read More

“There’s No ‘Y’ Here.”

May 14, 2015

I shish-kebabbed our car bumper this week.  Like a skewer through marinated sirloin.  Even my love of meat didn’t make this comparison humorous to me.  It was sad.  I was sad.  I won’t get into the “how I ended up with a giant hole through the front of our car,” because it was so random and… Read More

Handmade With Love. Covered in Prayer.

April 27, 2015

My mom is NOT going to like this blog post.  She doesn’t like attention for stuff like this, which is all the more reason why she DESERVES attention for stuff like this.  She’s not out flaunting her awesomeness…so I’ll do it for her!  I’m allowed.  I’m her proud daughter. I have so many memories being… Read More